boring is better than the alternative.

life has become very stable as of late. it's nice. good job. good friends. good times. i guess i just never really thought i could be this content. haha. i think i was always trying to be something or do something that would distract me from personal strife/emotional hardship. as of late my mind has been filled with the next short story i want to write, or characters for the future novel challenge. . . what i need to do next for cinequest. . . and figuring out move in logistics. lol. somewhat boring/ho hum stuff. .. but better than being miserable and sad! i went swimming for the first time this season. it was refreshing. i can't wait to make use of the pool at the new place. 

i have gained a few running partners. i'm going to go on another eating well spree since it's getting harder to run the long distances eating garbage! angela comes to visit in 2 weeks!!! i haven't seen her since last august. Crazy. I have to say, she was the best friend I made in SD. If nothing else came from that wretched time, at least I found her. She was there for me completely and even though things fell apart towards the end, she was seriously my rock and I had no idea how I was going to get along without her. it's been tough in its own right. I miss San Diego for some things, like beach weather all the time, the fun and not so fun days at Gordon Biersch. I think I miss the life I made for myself. It wasnt much, it wasn't great, but it was mine.

Anyway, I start my first official position tomorrow. 9-6pm. Whoo. Not really lol. I mean I'm stoked to have the official contract and everything down, but now it all feels more real. Obligations and pressures are on. Wish me luck!!

Writing Exercises

I've been doing a lot of really short pieces and a short story to prep for the NanoWriMO in Nov. 50,000 word novel in one month. We'll see how that goes. 

I wrote this on an extremely short camping trip. Playing around with lyrical prose and descriptive words.

A Stolen Moment Alone

The serenity of wheat blowing, fog rolling, and humming of still life keeps me company today. The noise down below no longer keeps me in captivity. I am alone. The trees vast, live in peace. I observe a path unworn. I, feeling the opposite. In a place far away from the know, I am myself. There is no yesterday and no tomorrow. The worries of where I need to be, what I need to do, float airily away, carried by the same wind that catches my hair, nice cool breeze. The sun does its best to envelope me in its embrace but the wind keeps on fighting. Claiming ownership. I feel as if I could live in this moment forever. I think silently of him, though he doesn't think of me. The warmth of the sun does not reach. Futile in its attempts, I retreat back. The sound of pebbles and sand crunching remind me that tomorrow must come, even if not quite so peacefully.

Curb Your Enthusiasm

is hilarious! i've watched all six seasons already but i can't get enough. larry david, why are you such a dick??? lololol. ahhh. i've cringed for the past couple hours. 

i have also started to really like it's always sunny in philadelphia. i think i need to make that my next couple rentals.

New Week

So the job (even though I am working now). . . will start June 1st. 

Tentative move in date: July 1st. 

I have a lot to do within the next two months .. . but for now I'm sitting around singing along to Sound of Music haha.

Star Trek

was surprisingly pleasant. I enjoyed the entertainment value and wasn't bored for the 2 and a half hours it was going on. A little slow I think in the beginning and it wasn't too clear when things were going to end, but I guess I would have had a better idea if maybe I watched Star Trek, the episodes? Nonetheless, half the experience was going there and sitting with the Trekkies. lol. They smell funny though.

Hitting the Ground Running

Got negotiations started. Have the email from Kathleen. Will respond tomorrow with my tweaks and what not. Official start date: June 1st. Which is perfect because tentative move in date for new place: July 1st. So I'll have time to make some extra cash to my savings and be solid when I start living there. Contracted for 3 years (sort of a bummer) because I don't really want to stay in SJ that long but vacation time is super flexible. So I'll be able to travel around. Maybe I'll find another town or country I'd like to live in other than NYC. 

Life has been a blur/whirlwind. Been working hard, making changes, and doing my best to make something out of myself. Happy with how it's all going though. Let's see what the rest of 2009 will bring!