peanuts.

lives up the hype. yum!! i love eating. i think if i had to give that up or rather give up junk food or grease. . . i would be unhappy for the rest of my life.

this weekend . . .

totally rocked. friday a friend bailed on me for dinner and i was kind of bummed out about it since i was looking forward to getting out of my house and forgetting the shitty week i had. . . but wouldn't you know it, things turned out even better. richard and i went out to dinner and then called up the twins. they were down to go out. so was anson and caragan. we stopped at tres gringos first but decided it sucked. so we headed to jacks. got the whole asian invasion crew together. 

it was me, christine, victoria, richard, anson, caragan, anh, evan, and rex crowding up the back. hahaha. it was pretty awesome. we had a good time and it all just worked out well. checked out jasmine thai the next day, hung out at the mall while eating froyo yum, and then kicked it at the rose garden. i wanted to be outside as much as possible. it was so nice. then went to the art show with davis and co. that was chill. i really liked a couple of the pieces and liked itas a whole conceptually. in n out was a good choice i think. i enjoyed it and still got through my run the next day. 4 miles! woot. tomorrow is 3 miles so it shouldnt be too bad. ok i need to polish my project. ramble ramble ramble!

new day . .

today's gonna be stellar bc the last 24 hrs were shitty haha! i got up early and did training today and it was good. 3 miles and strength training today. tomorrow is rest! thank goodness. actually the next 2 days aren't too bad. then sunday 4 miles! still working on the project. i set a 1pm deadline on myself for the draft. ok sorry that was boring stuff. i just needed to get pumped for the day. so far so good. no new injuries.

smashed!

my freaking fingers when i closed the car door. now i have these little red bruises on my knuckles. damn that hurt almost as bad as when i kicked the metal part of my bed on accident yesterday. i feel like someone somewhere is telling me not to exercise because i don't know how well i'm gonna be able to run and lift tomorrow. 

i got up at 7am this morning and went for a run but my knee is doing that weird thing again where it hurts if i put a lot of pressure on it running. i might just have to train outdoors sooner than expected. it might be easier on my legs. 

working on the test project. sounds pretty cool. will have to blog about it in a bit. i'm off to see my newly married friend and give her back some stuff that i'm sure she wants. i'm gonna try not to physically hurt myself anymore in the next 24 hrs. wish me luck.

nervous as hell!

so callin the boss in five to figure out what this new trial project is for me to prove my writing and speaking skills. YIKES. then off to the gym for day 2 of scheduled training. 3 miles today! we'll see how it all goes. i've been on a bad exercising schedule ever since the festival :(

woot!

i might possibly become the new development manager at CQ. which would mean gaining sponsorship for the organization and working closely with both co-founders. scary!!! but exciting :D

oh life. i still don't know whats going to happen. but i love options!

murs! (break up)

stop being such an emo whiney kid. lol you're killin a great beat. 

Amiri Baraka is the shiiit!

i got into a conversation today with a friend about the kind of literature i like. it's not often someone shares a common interest or even a slight interest in reading. .  and i hate to sound like i'm name dropping but there's some really great stuff out there. amiri baraka being one of them.

www.amiribaraka.com/blew.html

bc blogspot won't let me copy and paste the entire thing. 

this journal. . .

seems to surface every couple years. how strange. haha. i re-read some of the stuff written in here and it makes me laugh. i think maybe i remember what i was actually thinking vs. what was written. everything is always so cryptic!!! i feel like all that stuff was so heavy hearted. sure, i still have my own issues but i think that's part of being an adult/being human. 

2009 has been awesome. i've been taking quick little road trips to places like Santa Barbara (and probably going to head back down to SD with some friends and show them around!), but also traveled out to the East Coast. I think I left a piece of my heart in NY. I think of my trip sometimes and I get so wistful. I wish I could just step outside and run around Central Park or spend time at the Met. I watch movies and I see the NY backdrop and I sigh to myself. haha. It's like a relationship or something!!! I love NY.

The Cinequest Film Festival happened for 12 days and it was one of the most amazing times of my life. Just getting VIP access to everything and enjoying what I do for a job. They're going to do a formal interview with me next friday to see if I would be a good fit for some of the positions opening up in the office. That makes me VERY excited. Now I have some options. Could go back to school . . . could work fulltime. I wouldn't mind staying with CQ and I think even if I got my MA, I would be looking for another job like CQ anyway!!! We shall see how it all goes down and I'll keep everyone posted.

Getting a new place with Paul in July!! I am so excited about living with him. I've been wanting to live with him since we graduated. So that will be exciting. Then there's all the small things I want to continue to do and accomplish. Sky dive, hike more, explore new eateries, get in shape, run half marathon in October. .  etc etc etc! 2009 is full of promise because I keep carrying on. I am finding all the things I want to do and want to be. It's exciting and to be honest, I've never been happier in my life. I realized for the first time in a long time, I find myself smiling out of nowhere. Smiling more in general. Being a little more goofy and much less serious. these days, i just wanna go out and have fun. do what i want, take care of my own, and be me!