this journal. . .

seems to surface every couple years. how strange. haha. i re-read some of the stuff written in here and it makes me laugh. i think maybe i remember what i was actually thinking vs. what was written. everything is always so cryptic!!! i feel like all that stuff was so heavy hearted. sure, i still have my own issues but i think that's part of being an adult/being human. 

2009 has been awesome. i've been taking quick little road trips to places like Santa Barbara (and probably going to head back down to SD with some friends and show them around!), but also traveled out to the East Coast. I think I left a piece of my heart in NY. I think of my trip sometimes and I get so wistful. I wish I could just step outside and run around Central Park or spend time at the Met. I watch movies and I see the NY backdrop and I sigh to myself. haha. It's like a relationship or something!!! I love NY.

The Cinequest Film Festival happened for 12 days and it was one of the most amazing times of my life. Just getting VIP access to everything and enjoying what I do for a job. They're going to do a formal interview with me next friday to see if I would be a good fit for some of the positions opening up in the office. That makes me VERY excited. Now I have some options. Could go back to school . . . could work fulltime. I wouldn't mind staying with CQ and I think even if I got my MA, I would be looking for another job like CQ anyway!!! We shall see how it all goes down and I'll keep everyone posted.

Getting a new place with Paul in July!! I am so excited about living with him. I've been wanting to live with him since we graduated. So that will be exciting. Then there's all the small things I want to continue to do and accomplish. Sky dive, hike more, explore new eateries, get in shape, run half marathon in October. .  etc etc etc! 2009 is full of promise because I keep carrying on. I am finding all the things I want to do and want to be. It's exciting and to be honest, I've never been happier in my life. I realized for the first time in a long time, I find myself smiling out of nowhere. Smiling more in general. Being a little more goofy and much less serious. these days, i just wanna go out and have fun. do what i want, take care of my own, and be me!