if i could be your first real heartache, i would do it over again

hm. giving this blogger thing a try seeing as how victoria has run over to xanga. i think i have wayyy too many journals too but i like being in different communities. i just randomly went out to eat with clint..i always wonder if maybe i talk too much about my life and what's going on with me because he just doesn't say much. he still invites me out though so i guess i must be doing something right. i'm trying to find a new xanga skin..but that's taking me quite awhile. i really liked the johnny homicidal maniac skin...but that reminds jared of bad times. i'd rather not induce memories of pat if i can help it. man, i have this retarded looking one now. how crappy. oh well. i'll find a better one in the morning. it's already 2am. no use in trying to get a cool one at this time of night. anywho i think i'll stop this blog right now and try to clean up before i head to bed. nitey-o!