wow.

it's been ages!!! i think at some point i had four journals going on haha...so i had decided this one would be one too many. i'm back down to 2, so hoorah. i look back on the entries that were posted here and i realize how long ago that was!! i feel almost like a new person. maybe that's why i enjoy journals so much. i like to monitor change and progress. Everything seemed so unsure, so hopeless, so hard, when i was writing those entries 2 years ago. astronomy class??? Wow. haha. that's all i have to say.

being on the verge of graduating and growing up has made me feel differently about all my past friendships, encounters, social situations, "arch enemies," feuds, and relationships. i think at some point, i just realized how tiring it is to always be angry. nobody likes to waste energy like that. i've started to make peace with myself and to stop blaming others. i used to like being extremely reckless, loud, obnoxious, and in your face. lol but it seems the glory days are over. time to grow up and be civil. i think having to work so hard to be here at santa clara has made me reflect on what i want in life, how i want to live it, and what i want to do while i'm here.

so anyway, if you're an old friend and you happen to stumble on this page, feel free to leave me a comment or let me know your presence somehow. i'd love to be in touch again. as for those that i should keep up with more often, i'm hoping that we'll be better at communicating with each other in the near future!